I’m still standing
This'll be short... I'm not dead, even if I've felt like it this week. Not sick, just extremely low energy level and headachy. It's been all I can do to make my meal plans, eat and get a little housework done and manage the grocery shopping. Which hubby did some of for me. Posting didn't happen.
I've also found myself going to bed earlier and sleeping more like 10 hours instead of my normal eight. Except last night, where for some reason, I was just COLD all over and kept shivering so it took forever to get to sleep. Mind you... I also had a warm cat at my back and the thermostat set to a reasonable 72F. Yeesh!
Exercise, not much. One pitiful workout on Monday.
I feel the calorie deficit is getting to me. Mentally, bad moods, even one rage (So NOT me!) where I threw my mouse down in frustration.
Today, in spite of the lack of sleep, in spite of the headache, I remembered something. I've felt crappy before. I've been in pain before. And it sucks.
But what sucks more is giving in! There's a little saying called "Fake it 'til you make it." It can work for depression and crappy moods. Make the effort, think happier thoughts, pretend like all is well and things do get better somehow.
So, I got up, turned on the music, made a tasty breakfast and pretended I felt a little energetic. Which I don't. But the cats didn't notice that I was lethargic when I flipped their toy about for them to play with. Their little brains just say "TOY" and "PLAY"! And I got a laugh or two out of it and they enjoyed it. I just loaded my gym bag. I'm planning to get to water aerobics. It may be a sluggish workout just like Monday's (The absolutely worst workout I've had in an entire TWO YEARS!) but I am going to go through the motions. It may be my body needs a longer adjustment period to this.
It may be that I should go with less exercise and, whoa, even fewer calories! Which is what folks are telling me. They could be right... it apparently works for some people, though I must say, in the past, less activity, few calories has always lead to poor mental outlook and uncontrolled eating for me! It is food for thought.
Less movement seems very counter to my personality. And I'm not sure that going counter to my personality is a good recipe for me for the long term. Anyway, gotta be outta here if I'm going to make class!
