Patience is my friend
I knew the scale had to move eventually if I stuck to things, but you know how it is. Nothing happens, you start to doubt your plan, yourself, your calorie level, everything. You know just what I mean, if you've ever tried to lose weight. I was thinking "Was the switch to "Cheat To Lose" a good idea?", "Am I somehow eating too many calories still?" and "Am I eating enough calories not to stall out?" and so on, so forth.
The worst part of these doubts is that you get that niggling feeling...
"Why am I working so hard, for so little progress?" That one's a biggie. That's the one that can so easily lead to a cheat, a lapse, a binge, because it is discouraging to work hard, stick to something and see little happening. I say thank goodness for my measuring tape! At least I saw another form of progress to motivate me!
But sometimes I think I am just spoiled and impatient. It took me years to get here, to this weight level, it will take time to get back to a normal weight level. There is no instant fix.
When you are blogging, you WANT that loss on your scheduled weigh-in day. Life says "You don't always get what you want!" But some days, you get what you need! Yesterday, I didn't get what I wanted, a nice loss to post. Every self doubt I mentioned above crept in and more. I crashed totally when I got home from the pool, aching, tired and no energy left and it would have been SO EASY to cave in and binge. I almost did. But I remembered my one inch lost and stuck to plan.
And today, I got what my weight-wars torn psyche needed... a two pound loss on the scale!
I'll try to answer future doubts with a bit more patience!
